Barbara Newhouse Trimble
Prayers - Faith - Miracles
Dear Family & Friends,
Today I started on my 5th type of Chemo Therapy. Two weeks ago the
doctor said the current treatment was no longer working and several tumors in my abdomen had grown. Something (like an orange rind) has also grow around the outside of my lower lungs which makes it difficult
to breath. There is a 20 % chance the chemo will shrink the tumors / or kill
them. The treatment can also be toxic to the heart, so there is a limited
amount of treatments, anyone can tolerate. The doctor believes I could live a
year, and if my body rejects the chemo, I may only have a few months on this earth.
I am still praying for a miracle! I believe that God has me in the
exact place I need to be in, however, only the Trinity knows the number of
days any one of us has on this earth. Even Jesus in the garden ask God to let "this cup" pass. So I am praying that my days on earth would be numerous, I'm selfish ... I love all of you & am so blessed in this life that I am not ready to accept the invitation to go to heaven before I become a cranky, wrinkled, and doting grandma. Some of my medical friends and my doctor are limiting God & won't pray for a miracle. A miracle to me would be to live until Matt returns from Miami next spring so he won't have to deal with my death during the school year. An even greater miracle would be for me to live several more years with the opportunity to share with others that God is the great physician.
Monday, August 25th is my 48th Birthday. I am asking each of you to give
me the gift of prayer on that day. Please pray for a miracle for myself & for
a peace beyond all understanding for my immediate family & all of you who have also been touched by this disease. Please pray that this situation will glorify our Lord and Savior who has control over all things on heaven and on earth.
Please note, I hate most mail that has been forwarded, especially when
you are made to feel guilty if you don't forward the Email. HOWEVER, I am
asking you send this to all pray warriors! Please ask them also to pray on
Monday the 25th. Please help me overwhelm God with
prayers ... don't forget to also thank God for all the blessings he has given
all of us, for his creations on earth & for his love and grace.
As for the rest of the immediate family. Jon is overwhelmed, very
compassionate & a great nurse. Katherine is taking her Senior year off from
OU, to stay home and to be supportive & help with "Mom Chores." Matt had
mixed emotions, but is back at Miami. Jenn is my companion and looking forward to starting 10th grade. The hardest thing for all of them is that some of their closest friends and family don't offer them support. Cancer is like having a huge elephant as a pet & when you have visitors over they pretend there isn't a big gray blob in your family room. We are not asking for sympathy or pity, just acknowledgement that we are struggling with a very emotional situation. And, don't ever worry that if you call the house, you will be disturbing us. We are seeking normalcy, and if you know our house hold that
includes ... dozens of kids at the house and the phone ringing off the hook.
My love goes out to each of you. Have faith ... and remember I see
each day as a blessing and an opportunity. I refuse to focus on the cancer &
death, I have so much to live for & so much yet to accomplish.
Barbara
Ps. Please do not send flowers, goodies or food. We will let you know when
the time comes, if it comes ... that we need food or a helping hand.
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